Wednesday, February 15, 2012


I know I've been mia again, but I assure you there's a lot going on. First and foremost, I'm becoming more nocturnal than usual. I have always been more of the night owl, but recently it has gotten out of hand. I have 2, yes 2, days of work left, and for the last two weeks I have not been sleeping well. This has gotten progressively worse. Normally I can take a nice 3mg melatonin pill and 30mins later I'm fast asleep and wake up refreshed. Not now, I take my wonderful sleeping aid and an hour and a half later I'm still wide awake.

Yes, I realize that this is all probably stress, anxiety, nervousness, and excited-ness related, (I'm pretty sure I just made up a word there, forgive me) but this is getting a little out of hand. I need my sleep, I get grumpy when I don't get enough sleep. We are officially reaching a dangerous number of days without enough sleep. Normally I'm in bed by 2am at the latest during the week, I work 2nd shift, but lately it's 4 or later before the sand man finally decides to visit.

Lack of sleep and my rollercoaster emotions are taking their toll on my sanity and relationship with my husband. I get very snippy and reserved in times like these and with us being so far apart it makes me feel even more isolated. This in turn makes me more agitated, as well as hubby. He tries so hard to be there for me and be understanding and calm me down, but in turn it just ticks me off even more. I try to control the emotions, but sometimes I snap. This distance while we are in the same country is not good for us, especially considering that we haven't gotten that much time together in general. Total time together since Dec 2010 - 6 weeks at most, and I think I'm over estimating. I know things will get better when we get to be together for a few days, they always are.

I'm just very thankful that we decided to get married and get me moved when we did. Yes, I'm sad that our families and friends couldn't be there, but overall this was the best decision. Things are getting extremely bad and stressful where I work and it is more than time to leave the place where I trained for my profession and later got hired. It's not the same, it has changed, and no where near a good way when safety is compromised.

I have a lot of work to get done in a week. Once Friday comes I will be unemployed, by choice and necessity, and the packing will begin. Look out Texas, here I come, curly hair and all. LOL

BTW I hope you all had a wonderful love day. I hope you all had good company to spend some time with. My day consisted of beautiful flowers from hubby and an always interesting day with coworkers.

Now if only hubby would start to feel better and I could start getting some sleep, I would be much happier. Goodnight all!! (Wish me luck)

1 comment:

  1. Aww pretty flowers! I hope you're feeling better by now!